254 point 8 to be exact.
that is what the scale told me that I weigh when I stepped on it today.
this is me in all my glory.
rob took photos of me in my unders as well, but as far as I’m concerned this is as exposed I feel I can be right now.
I feel COMPLETELY NAKED in front of the internet. (Believe me when I tell you that it is not easy for me to write those numbers and post these photos.)
254.8 pounds. Holy Cuss. That more than 2.5 times the weight of one of my dearest friends! I cringe when I hear about professional athletes who weigh less than I do.
This is it. It is time for me to make a change. I am putting myself out there in this huge way in hopes that I will find support, accountability, motivation, and did I mention support? ;o) Who knows? Maybe I’ll even inspire someone along the way! That would be so rad!
Honestly, I don’t have a number goal in mind. Maybe I’ll lose 60 pounds. Maybe it’ll be 80 or even 100! Honestly, if I lost 10 or 20 pounds I would feel damn proud!!!
What I do know is this: I want to look good in clothes that I like again and have boots fit my calves and wear tank tops in the summer without shame. I want to be able to be active without worrying that I will tire too quickly or be embarrassingly winded at the slightest exertion. I want to be able to hop up from kneeling at photo sessions without feeling like i look ridiculous & clumsy. I want to lessen my chances of cancer & heart disease that are so prevalent in my family. I want my feet to stop hurting and to not feel panic that I’m having a stroke or a heart attack at every weird twinge or sensation in my body. I want MORE ENERGY! And more than anything else, I want to feel proud of myself for accomplishing something I have wanted & needed for a very long time, and show my children how amazing working hard for something you want badly can be.
Rob & I went to the gym today for the first time (we bought our membership in April and have been collecting more credit card debt in gym membership dues for a membership that we have not been using. An extremely foolish thing for a family that is struggling to make ends meet!). We got oriented with the gym, set up with 3 sessions with a personal trainer, and spent some time on the cardio equipment. And you know what??? It was GREAT! Taking that step. Making a new commitment together. DOING SOMETHING about our HEALTH! TOGETHER!
So here I go! Embarking on this journey, and intend to share it all with you along the way! And I would value any and all input, advice, encouragement, empathy or whatever you’ve got… so please chime in!